So for those of you that follow the MyShtub Facebook page know that I have been hinting to something going on with me. In short there is something going on with my insides and the doctors need to figure out what it is. My doctor in much nicer words said we just have to make sure it's not more cancer , G-d forbid. Anyways tomorrow I get to spend my Chanukah at the hospital. I'm am obviously upset about this on so many levels. I have recently learned the hard way that cancer survivors,like myself, have one fear and that is ....... secondary cancer. This is why I'm always having tests because my doctor is a good doctor and he knows my risks.
Its like this,when the average person goes to their doctor with an ailment the doctor runs some tests and looks at your medical history. Usually he will advises you to eat better, get more rest, lay off the wine, you get the idea. When I go to the doctor I have to go through extensive invasive testing before they can send me home, and that is what is happening tomorrow. This will be for the rest of my life.
I'm not sure how long it will take me to recover, I can be home tomorrow night or in a week. It's all up to Hashem. So please Hashem let me make latkes and donuts with my kids. Let me light the Menorah with them each night. Please Hashem don't take Chanukah away from me.